Worth Every Step: Reflections on My Doctoral Journey
4,599 Days
Four Thousand Five Hundred Ninety-Nine Days
It took me exactly 4,599 days from the day I embarked on my first attempt at a Doctor of Philosophy degree to the moment I completed my Doctor of Education degree. Nearly 12 and a half years—a period marked not just by academic pursuit but by profound personal growth, immense challenges, and the unyielding support of family and friends.
Starting my educational journey, I was filled with a clear vision and boundless enthusiasm, eager to explore the nuances of academia and contribute my voice to the dialogue around dance education and leisure experiences for adult learners. This was not just an academic interest; it was deeply personal, a reflection of my own experience as a “late bloomer” in the world of dance. The path, however, was anything but straightforward. After realizing that my initial path wasn’t aligning with my evolving experiences as a Black woman in professional and academic spaces, I pivoted to a Doctorate of Education, a decision that redirected my life’s work toward practical impacts rather than focusing on theoretical discourse.
This journey was underpinned by so many surreal moments, particularly during the graduation ceremonies. Walking across the stage, I was struck by a torrent of emotions—pride, relief, and a poignant sense of absence. My ceremonial regalia felt like both armor and vulnerability, a mantle of achievement that was heavy with the weight of those who weren’t there to share in this milestone.
Among those missing was my father, whose belief in my potential was unwavering from my first day of school to his last day on earth. He passed away before seeing me complete this journey, and knowing he was not in the crowd was a silent ache amid the celebrations. Yet, I could feel his pride permeating through the bittersweet air, reminding me of the resilience and determination he instilled in me.
Dr. Kim & her dad John
Family and friends filled the gaps of his absence, their cheers and congratulations providing a balm of support that has been indispensable. Without their unwavering encouragement, the numerous setbacks and challenges might have been insurmountable. They were my anchor, keeping me grounded when the academic pressures and personal doubts threatened to capsize my resolve.
Dr. Kim celebrates with her Godmother, Ms. Gladys, Son, Arren, and Mother, LaVera
Dr. Kim celebrates with family, including cousins Deidre and Rev. Dr. Aaron
The culmination of this journey was not just an academic capstone but a transformative era of my life. It was during these years that I not only developed a scholarly voice but also found my personal courage—the courage to stand firm in my identity as a Black woman navigating spaces that were not designed for me. My research, focusing on the treatment of Black women in the workforce, was both cathartic and empowering. It allowed me to channel my struggles and those of countless others into a body of work that I hope will inspire change and foster a deeper understanding.
Reflecting on these 4,599 days, I realize this degree is much more than a personal achievement; it is a testament to the collective spirit of all who supported me, a narrative intertwined with the legacy of my father, and a contribution to a larger conversation that affects countless individuals navigating similar paths.
As I move forward, the knowledge and experiences gained through this journey will inform my future endeavors, both professional and personal. I am reminded that every end is simply the beginning of a new journey. With this chapter closing, I am eager to see where my next steps will lead, carrying with me the lessons learned and the memories cherished from this profound chapter.
To those still walking their path, remember this: the road is long, and the journey is taxing, but you are not alone. Embrace your support network, lean on your loved ones, and keep pushing forward, no matter the obstacles. The view from the finish line is worth every step.
